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"Ya Allah kau temukanlah aku jodoh dengan lelaki yang beragama, berharta, bijaksana dan rupawan"
- Hanis Zalikha


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I've been in a relationship with myself for 21 years. And to have changes like makin decisions together, going to places together, blablabla together... is hmmm.

Can be slightly suffocating but.. think i can do with abit of help in my life sometimes.

I think im so so used to this single, carefree, independent life that when 'together" comes into the picture, I feel out of place.

But i think i can deal with that. Slowly..

But whats the deal that i cant deal with?

Embracing your shameless past.
Bcos as much as people say that its the future that you shud embrace, what i think is, before you do that, you jolly well embrace the person standing beside you first. And for you to do that, pls embrace the flaws, scars and whatever of its ilk bcos its all those little things which make up the person he is today. In gist, if you can't embrace the past`first, how then can you embrace the owner? What more the future?

i cant simply press "delete" or chuck this life document in the rubbish bin.
Altho many times, I wish i could.

But i'm still trying. I'll try until i reach the end point, which i will then decide if i wanna u-turn or just go straight.

Sigh.

I have a friend who likes to tease me about my high self-esteem. Honestly, having a high self-esteem is nothing to be ashamed of. In fact, it's something that you should be proud of! Bcos not everyone can own that. Of course there's a fine line between "being full of yourself and "high self-esteem". And this two should never be confused. I'll save that for another time.

Now let me tell you why everyone MUST have a high self-esteem!

Loving the Most Important Person in Your Life

I’m sure that there are lots of things that you really love. You may love your parents, your husband/wife, your girl friend/boyfriend and your children. You may love your car, your home or even your new mobile phone.

But let me ask you a question that may seem really weird, ‘do you love yourself?’ Do you love that person you see in the mirror every day? If you find that you have many things in life to be grateful for but are still not happy with, the reason may be because you have not learnt to love yourself.

In order to be HAPPY and SUCCESSFUL, you have to start by loving yourself. The reason why many people feel lousy about themselves and fail to achieve is because they don’t like who they are.

Many people think that they must first become successful before they start loving themselves and their life. In fact, the opposite is true. You must first love yourself before you can become successful. People who love and feel good abut themselves have what is called HIGH SELF-ESTEEM.

The Power of Loving Yourself

When you really love someone, you always want the very best for him or her, right? You would do anything for them. You would make sacrifices for them and defend them if anyone speaks badly of them.

The same thing goes when you love yourself.

When you love yourself, you will want the very best for yourself. You would not accept anything less than the best for yourself. You will want the best relationships, the best career, the best partner and the best home. You will not accept being in an abusive relationship. You will not accept being stuck in a job you hate. You will not accept a mediocre life that is going nowhere.

In other words, those who love themselves dream big and set high standards for themselves. At the same time, you would be willing to work hard and make sacrifices for yourself. You will be willing to sacrifice the effort to go to the gym, to read a self-improvement book and to avoid unhealthy foods that are bad for you.

And this is said by none other than the very inspiring Adam Khoo!

See?? There's nothing wrong in setting high standards (esp in findg a partner) bcos like they always say, never settle for anyting less than the best! :))

I laughed when my tutee said this, "Cikgu, Izzat dapat twelve-and-a-half apow..."

HUH APOW??! Hahahahaha ape apow??

"Ey apoww pulak.. twelve-and-a-half UPON 15."

Wow. So are you the highest?

"No, i'm the 2nd highest. The highest got 13."

Awesome, yes or yes? YES! Cos you know why. Four days ago, he came to me and said, he got 3rd highest for his math test. And that came from the same 11 year old who failed his math like nobody's business since Pri 3. Awesome right.

Teacher very happy :))

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I went around facebooking, bloghopping, browsing, flipping.. in short, kepoing, hahaha. And I see pages and pages of couple photos and cheesey captions and I just cannot imagine myself...

1) taking a photo of myself and put a caption on the top right hand corner, *insert bf name* 's. Example, "George's"
Sape George aku pon tak tau actually. HAHA. If I put a malay name, people will think I'm tryna hint sth. The trees won't move if there's no wind. Dah diam atiqa.

2) having to talk to him on facebook, msn, yahoo, email, phone, sms. EVERYWHERE. Wakalikong! I need oxygen, yoohoo!

3) going shopping with a boyfriend.

i NEVER go shopping with a guy. Ey wait, actually i did. Hahaha confident sey "i NEVER". Nevertheless, I will still rule out the idea of going shopping with a guy UNLESS he's a she-male. I like she-males actually. They're one of a kind. And very honest. And real. And genuinely caring. Straight men will either be bored rotting at a corner while they wait for you wrestle with other girls who are eyeing the same dress as you, haha, or they give lousy feedbacks. The kind which goes like this, "up to you lah.. whichever you think is nicer" or "you look great in both" or "no difference lah..". You get my drift now?

Or even if they are good shopping partners, behind your back they're probably like this with their boys:

 

Have you wondered where this old adage, "opposites attract" stems from? I neverrr get it when people use it, often using their relationships as an example. I just dun get the logic, or perhaps there's no logic to that? And I dun dig it. Ok i have zero idea too why I'm so disturbed by "opposites attract". Hahaha. And so I googled to find out how this saying comes about, like its origin and all, and I found that it's due to genetics.

Professor Maria da Graça Bicalho, head of the Immunogenetics and Histocompatibility Laboratory at the University of Parana, Brazil has revealed that humans select mates for their differences and not their similarities. And it’s built into our genes.
- New Science


However, according to an unreliable source (ahahha), Bani thinks it started from magnets. Since north and south poles attract. So, just because. Told you, unreliable what. HAHA.

( what i think about it. )

Both kks and Yana have blogged abt our mini red+white ndp "party" so i'm gonna spare you guys from reading another one. Butbutbut, allow me to pen down some quite interesting memories with my friend who snatched the award for the person with the most number of patriotic but corny lines last night. Haha!

Whoever my boyfriend is in 2 years' time,  handsome is the keyword. Like I said to Fil, everything about him must be worth the wait. Hahaha.

Mother of all randomness I know. Hehe.

It was sure not funny when my temperature tipped to 39.7deg last Saturday. I duno how relevant is the whole solar eclipse issue to the recent pandemic but there's sure a hell lot of people in coughing fits and fever distress lately. So anyway, I knocked on my sister's door at around 1am and told her that my temperature is at its peak. It started with a 38.9 in the afternoon and yes yes I know that was pretty high already, but I assured my sister that the temp's gonna go down after some nap.

But it just kept rising and no amount of the best panadols combined with magic health supplements could work its wonders on me. I stopped taking my temperature after 39.7deg bcos I was too scared to peek at a 40 or 41 deg on the screen. I never kena high fever ok!

And I tell you one thing, pls dun head to the hospital if you aren't in critical condition.

Worst mistake ever! I was isolated in some container room (reminds me of swiss sec 4 days) and I waited for more than 2hours for duno what. Nobody told me whats happening or whats gonna happen, like hello! There was only a chair, a table and a white blanket. And then pasted on the wall nxt to me was a patient advisory which stated that I have to undergo tests to determine if my symptoms are of H1N1 and the procedure will take 12hours.

I can milk 120 cows while waiting for the cows doctor to come home. You cant be serious!

So I pressed the button to call for the nurse and the alarm just went on for a good ten minutes and NOBODY attended to me. I could have fainted inside and nobody knows about my death story. Ha-ha kidding. So I called my sister and told her about the 12hours shit and she told me to press the nurse call button again until someone comes to me.

And so I did. When a nurse came, I blabbered some nonsense like my fever has already subsided (my temp kept fluctuating) and I want to go home. So a few minutes later, the doc came and did the usual check of the heart beat and the usual questions like what colour is my phlegm yada yada and then he said this:

"It doesn't matter even if it's h1N1 bcos your body will treat it like a normal flu"

But people dun die from normal flu, no? I duno lah whats the point he's tryna make but it's not very reassuring. So in the end, $90 was blown from my sister's pocket plus another $30 odd for taxi fares.

Not funny, people. Not funny.

So anyway, yesterday, filz made a trip to my house together with our financial advisor (who only looks quite serious but he's rather funny and entertaining actually) and she actually whipped a pot of creamy mushroom soup. Yummy! So sweet, yes or yes? Hahahahaha.

And sidetracked abit, I personally feel that it's a rare gem to find a young man who speaks very passionately about religion, what more a malay muslim. AND not pass off as bo-ring and dull like some alim ulama I know. HAHA.

So our financial advisor definitely gets all the awesome points in the world! :)

Children sitting in the front of your car can cause accidents,
Accidents at the back of your car can cause children.

HAHAHA.

So funny right, shan & ross! I like all their nonsense "caring for your relationship" quotes. One of life's favs, i promise.

Anyways, I have been bursting out laughing in this crazy hour for the past ten minutes and let me reiterate this again, why haven't I got sick of Filzah despite seeing her everyday and even when we're apart, geographical wise, we still sms/MSN/fb each other. Damn, is this what you call true love? HEHE.

So anywaaay, just a sec ago I was reading some girl's blog (recommended by yana under her "hate it but I still read" category) and her english is just so.. how do i put it .. trying so hard to be fantastic but ends up so spastic! Like, she tries to use all these crazyass big bombastic words to.. you know, make her stories more vibrant (VIBRANT, haha! thats an eg of how she writes) and very flowery. So it's so annoyingly funny. When you read, you'd burst out laughing with who'sthefather exclamations in between. And only boh liao people like yours truly and yana banana bother with such unnecessary cheap entertainment. Oh, not to forget our other lost Thai descendant too :D

So yeah, this VIBRANT blogger (haha!!) has gathered some serious fame after I told a few friends of her vibrant english. It's funny, i promise!

Ok moving on.

Let me end with one note.
It's with such crazy people that makes this world a better place.

ok zamigos!

Law of attraction. Now that I've comprehend it somewhat fully, I'm blown away. By its power, strength and woah, im amazed priss! Now I totally geddit when they say, "When you want something so badly, the whole world will conspire with you" (paulo coelho, The Alchemist).

So what's this law of attraction? You attract what you perceive. It doesn't matter if it's something good or bad, as long as it's in your mind, as long as you thought about it, you attract it. So its like, whatever that you have now ( 1 digit in bank , love rejection, awesome friends, ugly hair, etc) whether or not you're complaining about it, YOU ATTRACT IT.




So you see, this law of attraction is so powerful altho yes, you can't even see it with the naked eye, it works for both good and bad. So lesson learnt is, when you focus too much on what you dislike, you'll attract more of it.

So ladies with the bfs, dun go to ur special halves and say, "u don't cheat on me ok!"

Bcos if you ask urself, what's the keyword here? Yes, C-H-E-A-T.
When you focus too much on what you dislike, you'll attract more of it.

So instead, what should you say?
"You'll be faithful to me ok"

Focus on what you want, not what you don't want.

Now I geddit why I'm so unlucky in the love department. Bcos im too attractive (HA-HA).

Thanks for reading my two cents worth.
I may not look or sound inspirational but I really like all these inspiring stuffs and quotes and whatnots kay!

I have several things in my mind now so let's start in chronological order. Right.


1) I like reading kks krungthep troopin entries bcos her current thai life spells lotsa fun and freedom and simplicity and so..so.. chillax. Like ahhhh.. this is life. iEnvy.

2) I made a crazy decision. Don't ask, I'm tired of repeating myself.

3) I went on an awesome date but I wished I shared it with someone else. (ok ok.. no time for losers. Promise!)

4) I'm on the same page wit Yana when it comes to muslim guys who drink. Tettttt.

5) I like my tampines friend bcos he's always always there for me :)

6) I'm yearning to get on a plane. Hello, holidays? Anybody?

7) Filzah's comforting skills have improved by 87%. Amazing feat ;)

8) I think if I can just lose a fewwwww kilos, I'll be very pretty. HAHAHAHAHA.


9) I'm contemplating to throw my own 21st party after going to Sheena's just now. Although prior to that, I didn't want to cos of the hassle and the planning and the different cliques. I just like the party poppers people who'd stick to the theme. I'm not exactly into the whole speech thing, like thanking the people who've made my life a success (?!?!). Shouldn't it be the other way round since it's my bday and I should be the happiest girl on 21st October (now you know when is it, so dun try to escape ok! haha) every year and so my friends should thank me for being a wonderful friend? HAHAHA. I can expect a lot of tomatoes on stage after my party then.

But I really think it should be people thanking the bday girl/boy! Sorry I'm very selfish like that. Like Sheena justnow. HAHAH. I'll explain that in a bit but before that, come let's look at pics!

( One of the most interesting parties! )

Barely 5secs ago, I was so geared up to do a card for a customer when I found out, much to my upset, that I dun have the required colour styrofoam papers. Shitfestttttt.

How I wish kks is here. BOO :(

Back then when Friendster was the hotstuff, did you girls get pick up by 8597070 random guys from all over our sunny island and err.. world? On one hand, I find it a tad annoying that I'd get all kinds of rubbish messages BUT on the other hand, it's quite exciting to see what pick up lines they've got. Hah! Yes exactly, cheap thrill. Some of the lines are soooo not funny but they still got me in guffaws. Macam that kinda ??!?!?!? guffaw. Haha. But ofcourse, this does not include the VERY witty pickup lines I came up with myself to stalk handsome dudes on friendster HAHA.

Yes, I'm kidding. Only the witty part. Lol.

My "favourite" one was this veryvery long message by some moustache guy from Pakistan or something liddat. Ah I remember, Jigri! (Bani, REMEMBER? HAHA) Ok picture this, his profile pic was a rip off from his passport photo, bcos you know it's that kinda cue you get from the photographer, "no fringe covering the eyes, look straight (EY WHAT. my gd angle is on the left right!), dun tilt ur head to the side, hair behind ur shoulders (haha kks!) AND SMILE"

So many restrictions ofcos the smile like tak pasti liddat. Like for that split sec, u'd be thinking, ey alamak my hair nice anot ah, cover my eyes anot ah, my eyes kero anot ah and then when u come to the smile part, alamak too late snap already! So you tell the uncle to retake and then he'll start complaining under his breath and then u feel bad for troubling then while u're thinking of whether u shud apologise, there he goes taking ur pic again. The same tak pasti smile. hahahaha

Ok i sidetracked very long.

Oh so this Jigri fella (ey quite nice ah the name. Can make into a jingle haha!) sent me this very long msg which he included his compilations of 101 love tips and advices, Im not kidding! And then he described to me where he stayed, like got some valley on the left or what lah and then he told me how he has been searching for the one, that one true loveeee. Hahahahahha bullshit. Then best, he passed me his number. Woah the number was so long macam you know in the movie, Don't Mess With Zohan, the "taliban" guy dialled an endless string of numbers. Yah liddat!

This Jigri almost killed me in my laughter, like serious shit I kept on laughing and laughing and laughing. And the whole time I was thinking, where the hell he found my friendster profile?! Somebody enlighten me, pls.

I was hoping I still keep the message but sorry to disappoint, I've just checked my friendster and I've deleted it. Sigh, another life's greatest regret.

Wait, i suddenly remember another funny weirdo from friendster. I think it was Sufie's! If memory serves me right, it was some Indon-looking dude, very bapak2 already and best, got moustache! HAHAH. I think all these moustache owners very funnnyyy. Macam, you just take one glance at the pic, you'd start bursting already. Hahhaha no meh? Ok lah, maybe my friends and I are cheapthrill like that. Heh.


And then all of us moved to facebook and leave all the mats and minahs behind. Haha. But some are getting smarter already cos they've been catching up. Come, let's run faster! (?!?!?)

The other time this semi-mat pm-ed me on facebook. And as usual, my templated reply would be,
"Hi so-and-so, do we know each other?"

"No we don't but I thought I can expand my circle of friends :)"

You think you put one stupid smiley face can be my friend?!

"Sorry, not interested. My circle of friends is big enough already."

HAHAHA. Biadap.

Then he replied, "It's ok! Thanks! :)"

First time I see somebody get so excited after getting a rejection. Macam you know those prudential insurance agents, when they're about to approach you and you'd just wave your hand and shake your head as a "no" sign, they'd give out a chirpy "Thanks!".

Thank me for what? I got give you tissue meh?

And then very recently, this (literally) big-mouth looking guy added me on facebook. Luckily this one dun have moustache. Woah if not, the face really pecah lapan. Moustache + Big mouth = absolute horror


Let me copy paste our msg,
( COME, i know you want to know. )



Ok signing off,good day ya'll!

Someone shot to fame overnight just by talking about her horoscope. HAHAHA. I'm trying my luck too. No I'm kidding. I've always been a fan of horoscopes and zodiacs and whatever pls! I never ever closed a magazine w/o flipping to the horoscope page. And I remembered last time, there was once when I refused to smile to one of my 4,68970 eyecandies bcos my horoscope for the mth told me to lie low.

HAHAHA. Prangai.

Libra woman

( Everythg you need to know abt a libra girl )

Something unnecessary happened today.

I was in the train with Mira and as usual, you know la, i always have gazillion stories to tell even if we meet a gazillion times each mth. Haha. So I cant remember which story I was busy re-enacting (yes, i take pride in everythg i do! ) when this indian man.. I should think he's indian lah since he's dark (haha, stereotyping), who was standing in front of us tried to make eye contact with me. And then he interrupted,

Indian Man: *eyes darted back and forth* hmm..sorry sorry.. for interrupting. But you know, from the side right, you look like brhmrmh fox.

I didn't catch the first name and besides my story session more impt pls, so I just glanced at him and continued my story. Then I realised, he was still looking, so I stared back,

Indian man: From the side, you look like Samantha Fox.

Me: Uh.. ok.

And for the second time, I continued my story. Ey my story really damn interesting one lor. This stupid man should just stop his Samantha Fox nonsense and listened along if he wanted to.

Indian Man: Woaah.. not even a thanks? I admire you, you know.. say you look like Samantha Fox.

ADMIRE?! He think what. Zaman gigi bogeh you-want-to-be-my-stead-anot?!

And so I mumbled an ungrateful thanks AND CONTINUED WITH MY INTERESTING STORY.

Then after 5secs he left, Mira and I were thinking aloud, Whothehell is Samantha Fox?! I only know Megan Fox. And for those late bloomers in celebrity tabloids, pls update yourself that Megan Fox is a MAN! Anyways, so I googled my so-called twin and I found...


( Commissioning Ball @ St Regis )

So instead of spending a single cent on any LBD, which I still couldn't find the perfect one even after 3 days of exploring the world, I've hence decided to just borrow yana's super sexy lacey dress and wear it with my all-time favourite prom-ish blazer.

And just when I thought I could put my mind at ease since commissioning ball is tomorrow ZOMG.. I just read from my fav blogger's blog that the boys were only told last week that for the Comms Ball @ St. Regis Hotel this Friday, their partners are not allowed
to wear any dress above the knee level.

APE KEJADAH?!

Can't possibly I go to the ball and wear the Cinderella big and heavy gowns kind. If I wear that must put portable aircon underneath sey! But nvm lah, my date also didn't say anything so I act dunno can already. Teehee.

Oh wait, did I mention they aren't wearing their No.1 uniforms?! WHOSTHEFATHER?!!?! Not smart already I dun like.

And I'm not exactly anxious about the ball but more of clueless on what to talk about to my date since I've only met him once. Haha. And filz was the one who spoke more to him.. aiyoooo filzaaaaaahh. K merepek.

Aiya what to talk him abt.. Summor that time he also paisey2 then Filz's cousin was the one who kept shooting me qns then he just listen and nod his head mcm judge liddat.

Hopefully I'll get pms the whole of today so tmw I wun get any. ?!?!?! If not, my date confirm irritated to the max. Da lah never abide the rules, wear dress so short, then so pissypissy, then cannot drink gassy drinks, can only eat meat only.. SO LECEH NI POMPAN TAU TAK AJAK GI BALL. Hahahahaah.

OMGOMGOMG KKS IS ONLINE!!!!!

Sorry interval jap. Rindu kks :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Ok I very happy now after talking to kks. So bye. Anti climax i know. heh.